:'(

Boys... they'll only break your heart

Thought you were a man, but your breaking mine...

My Chemical Romance

The Hardest Part of this... is leaving youu...~ ♫

I told you I fell for you, I hope my time with you lasts long enough for me to hear it back from you...

for a long time~

Love the way you Feel around my waist

If one Person could tell me it life could have gotten this easy, I wouldn`t have believed them
If that person would have told me that this feeling really did exist I would have laughed
But Falling for you has been the easiest thing in my Life that I`ve ever had the pleasure of experiencing all the joy you`ve giving me so Far.

Love is crazy thing, it hits me when i want it the least, when im not looking for it, when I dont want it.
But thats what makes love, love.
Because no matter what, you just cant throw it away, you'll hold onto it no matter what.
I may not be inlove with Him yet, but Im certainly Falling, for him.

I dont want to sound so wierd, but I cant help it, I've never felt this good, never just wanted to see him everyday, never have i've felt ok about thinking about a future with him. It may sound silly, but im looking forward to waking up to his face in the mornings.


Andrew, I truely, deeply, care about you.

*heart*

I am Falling for Andrew. I am so happ'eh

Hahahahhaha :P

I wish I could Kill all the fuckers in the world!


And Always feel this special

soft lips :)

Finally, no more pain

Im over him, I only cried because I was holding back some of my words.

Im glad we happened sometimes, but right now, im glad we are over, because now I can move on, and we can hopefully be friends. But he better not DARE talk to me about other girls, or I will ripp his wittle head off... hahaha...



I'm falling for those deep blue eyes ♪

I love my friends

I love my friends, they are there for me no matter what.

I have this new friend whom I havent really talked to till now, he is nice, he is the only one who gets my mind of Vincent completely. Thanks Buddy :)

I hate Love

Every fucking thing reminds me of the happiness I had with you.
You just threw me away like I was nothing...
What am I to you?
I feel like all the love I gave you was meaningless



After Justin I gave Love one more chance...my heart was hurting so dear but I let you in because I thought you were different from everyone else... I thought you would love and care about me...

I gave you chances after chances...I let everything slide, because I loved you, but I never got the same treatment... I gave you everything I could ever give one person..

and you tossed it away like it didnt matter to you anymore...

Now im crying..
dying on the inside
heart broken
to the point where I dont know what I should do anymore..

I dont want to live with this live full of Pain...

Love is fucking bull shit.. I ALWAYS LOVE YOU TILL THE VERY END!!!... ITS ALWAYS ALWAYS FUCKING ME IN THE END WHO GETS STOMPED ON...

You can soar with even the smallest jump,
pick your feet off the ground,
bend your knees,
and lift your heart from the earth,
Love is a beautiful thing,
It can strive people to beauty,
it can force people into tears,
For me, love has done both,
sometimes I wished to die,
sometimes I loved to live,
at times like these, when I have no where to go,
feeling lost and betrayed by the one I love the most,
I know its nothing harsh,
I know its nothing serious,
I was just getting better with myself,
till you decided to knock down the pieces.
Everytime while we were both away,
I would get a negitive thought,
I took a deep breath
"I can trust my Vincent"
kiss my locket, and skip away,
coming home,
to find out I gave in to much, I should have held back more?
No, I am glad i didnt do that, that I finally...for once in such a long time...I tried to trust fully again..It may have turned out poorly..but at least I tried...


right? thats all that counts..I can proudly face him, say I may be upset, but at least I tried for you. you may have ruined that on your own, but I have done something I havent done since 11th grade. I thrusted.

I wrote this for you Vincent, we have our tough times, but I will Always, always, love you. Forever and always baby, you know your special to me.

Falling to the damp ground,
Knees bruised and sore,
I look into your eyes,
I see all I can be,
I see all I can hurt,
I raise my hand,
I offer myself to you,
you pull me to my feet,
take me into a warm embrace,
kiss me tenderly,
tell me you love me,
Don't let the sun fall out of your sky,
you say,
the stars will always shine in my eyes for you,
you can soar even with a broken wing,
My love will guide your way,
I'll hold you dear,
pick up your pieces,
show you I can be all you want me to be,
Because your all I want for me.

I hate myself....I want to just end the suffering..to live is to suffer

I wrote a Long heart tearing emotional Post, but I couldnt post it because I was affraid that I would hurt the person I love the most...I just want to stop the pain in my heart....my heart still hurts all the time..and not because of you darling...Because of all my past hurts, I always hurt, im always worried about being more hurt, Im so scared...I even know im going to be hurt again...but why does it have to be by you..?

Oh Love

The people you love the most save you and pull you up off the ground,
But the People you love the most easily can make you crash down.
I love you with all my heart, and I know you do too,
But sometimes we both have those days when you hurt me so,
But Im glad I have you, because you always pick me up again, and hold me close to your heart,
you care about me and thats all I ask for and I Love you so much. I hope you will always hold me dear and think about me when your away this weekend, I love you. I hope you Miss me while im missing you

PROM

Prom tomorrow! I am so excited, I have been looking forward to Prom since I was in grade 1! Its been my Dream, its supposed to by my Fairytale. I hope everything Is amazing <3 :) I'm so excited! I love my Boyfriend so Much I hope he wants to make tomorrow Night just as amazing special as I am Hoping for. I love you Baby. Your my Knight in Shining Armor <3

Drown the Flames, the Fires withen

I feel the burning in my skin,
I want to rip it off, show who I really am inside.
Tear away the flesh show the bones show the person.
Crazy like fire over whelmed, taken over by the thoughts,
No water in site, you have stolen all that is pure.
Dying Dying Dying, the fires are arising.
Like the dead they rise from the earth,
From hells fire they rise, To take the life from our eyes
The killing, the killing, the killing is starting,
I cant move, I cant move for the fire has burned me
Laying on the ground reaching to you for water, drown the flames, drown the flames,
save my soul save my soul from Him
He is coming, he is coming to take us all, just drown the flames, drown the flames
the fires within
My eyes burned shut, my skin just in ashes,
He is coming, he is coming, save my soul, drown the Flames
You laugh as you burn as well,
insanitary has taken over, the flames are at full power
They have taken your body, scar your skin, Drag you to hell for all your sin
save my soul save my soul from Him
He is coming, he is coming to take us all, just drown the flames, drown the flames
the fires within
I cant move my bones are next, cracking under the heat, the heat of hell,
Please save me God, your last prayers don't save you now, you waited to long
Praying now while all is lost, you have no faith you just surrender
to common belief you pray to,
You cry out through your burnt eyes
save my soul save my soul from Him
He is coming, he is coming to take us all, just drown the flames, drown the flames
The fires withen

I love you Vincent

I feel so bottled up inside I just randomly start crying. I feel like I cant tell anyone how I really feel...


I love you babe

I dont know what to do with myself

My boyfriend is applying to the Army..im terribly scared and worried for him..
He says he has nothing else to do and wants to leave...But that just makes me feel like he isnt just leaving Nova Scotia behind...but me as well... I'm heartbroken by the thought of him leaving me and/or getting hurt... I feel like he is leaving me behind..I feel like im not good enough for him to stay...

Prom!

Prom is coming up, but sadly so are exams!!! Gahh! hahaha Im excited

Vincent :)

I love you Hun <3

WTF

WTF
WTF
WTF
WTF
WTF




Pedro wheres my fucking Taco?

Boys

I cant stand Boys, That is all.

and I said Boys, not men.

For you My Prince

Feed my ashes to the Flames
Drowning in your tears
My legs rot from the inside out
Either way My body ends, My Soul continues.
So remember who I was, and how I was loved.
Don't remember how I died, How I hurt.
Remember the People who touched my heart

Im sorry that sometimes I cant see threw the fog

I hate myself to the point....I just wish I never exsisted...

I love you Loverboy, you are truely my heart <3 All of it. everything. I will always hold you and cherish you forever.

Stress relief :)

There was some things I wanted to talk to my Boyfriend about, and Im glad I got the nerve to talk to him today, and things went so well :) <3 Love you Baby

What does this mean to me?

What am I to do? If I cant comes to term with my own mind? What Do I do when im frightened by what lies behind.

The Puppy that stole my heart

Held a puppy in the store today...No puppy has ever touched my heart as much as this little guy did :'( I really want him so bad

I need love to live a loving life

Tears stain my face, Lies corrupt my mind,
I can never trust anyone, no one else is kind.
My friends all left me, threw me aside,
Now I am all alone left alone and cried.
Time will show me how to react, and hide away the tears,
Even when I'm truly hurt,I pretend like everything is clear.
Then I met you, you were up with me all night,
Never left me till the morning light.
We talked for hours, you and I,
Of how our life has been,
Then I fell in love with you as my pain grew thin.
Now my Pain is all gone, Have no place to hide,
Because now I have you warm arms to save me from the tide.
The tide is everything, all the struggles of my life,
From school to parents to Friends back stabbing,
from the pushes, shoves and grabbing.
You may have let me down sometimes but never broke my heart.
For that to me is a gold medal when love becomes an art.

I love you Vincent <3

sighs...

I'm confused about my life and everything in it :(



love you Vince

FML

Do dreams come true? Are Nightmares a look into the future?? I hope Not...I would not want my Loverboy to Cheat on me and treat me like my Ex did after we broke up...I love you Vincent....Forever and always xoxox

Should I help?

See, there is this Ex boyfriend who once Cheated on me, we were seeing each other for over a year and I found out he cheated on me with 7 different girls, and in the end, he chose the other girl over me, I got over it and found someone so much better and fell in love all over again, and now, that boy has choose to cheat again, and the girl he left me for dumped him and is crying and all his friends turned against him. I felt bad and we were in between our "hate" spree's (It lasts a couple weeks then we choose to be friendly) So i decided to be there for him because we were once best friends, so I started helping him get over his cheating ways but then everyone started coming after me and getting mad at me for helping him, even my boyfriend is VERY displeased.... it saddens me a lot. I just want to help him and we are meeting with a social worker every week for meetings to get him help and we talk a lot about his problems, he even cries on my shoulder, we haven't hugged since he left me for the other girl and now he wants and needs a hug all the time from me. Should I continue to help him? I think its the right choice?

Sorry Peoples

I'm going away for a bit to my boyfriends house with my best friend Ricki and DJ! :D YAY!!

Stocker Issues..........

Does anyone have any advice to get rid of someone who stocks you? He wont leave me alone, he comments on all of my things, stares at me all day at school, follows me every where wont leave my Boyfriend alone......He actually stocks me, im not just saying this Because i'm in high school and a guy pays alot of attention to me...No, He has been inlove with me for three years and when ever me and my boyfriend (and past boyfriends) kissed he would stare and when we wanted to go somewhere alone he would follow even if we asked him to go away. He gives dirty glances to any boys I talk to and tries to look like a fool infront of me to get my attention. Besides that he screams at me for no reasons, he yells when ever I make a joke about something, and when someone else makes a joke and i slightly Giggle he screams at the top of his lungs at me for giggling. And he openly admitted to masturbating to me...which is gross...and he always stares at me creepily and he looks for me in the mornings. He calls me all the time (I ignore his calls) and he just wont stop, I even tell him to stop, I tell him to leave me alone and just screw off and he wont listen. I was told this is emotional abuse because everyday in the hall Me and all my friends(who he thinks are his friends too -No one likes him because he's an ass and annoying) We have to look out for him in the halls. Its really annoying. Im getting tired of this. The other day he wanted to know what university I was going to and to see my courses so maybe he could get a class with me...It needs to stop...

I think when you create a blog you should let your feelings out, I don't understand why people have blogs promoting their knitting!
to each their own I guess :P

Love you Baby, your one in over a billion people I will always love.

Happy posting everyone. cheer up, everything in your life has a purpose, it has a reasoning for being like that, it will lead you to a better ending. as long as you lived a good life that is :) Dont spoil what you have now, because you will miss it when its gone.

A little thing called Death

Death, it sneaks upon us when we least expect it, taking loved ones and even ourselves.
Deaths cold embrace, chilling up its victims spine, paralyzing them with fear.
Wrapping his boney grip around their throats, squeezing the life from them.
Hells Demons arise from the depths and cold earth, dragging you down with them.
Not being able to scream, only able to stare, stare at the world your being taken from.
You can feel the heat, the heat from hell warms your body.
As they drag you further and further the heat intensifies making your blood boil and skin sizzle.
Steam arises from your body, the smell of burning flesh seeps in.
The screams and shouts from hells other prisoners surrounds you, their tiny fleshless hands reach out to grab you, to take your soul for themselves.
Your screams fill your head, not being able to release them.
Tears, tears only evaporate once they leave your eyes.
Reaching out for Gods blessing is all you can do, Praying he hears your call.


[To be continued :) ]
By Natasha Doré

Today is Vince's and My 3 months :)
He sent me a love song early this morning <3
Daft Punk-Digital love

here are the Lyrics:
"Digital Love"

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?


Love you Babe <333333333

(I will write something later :P )

First of many

My name is Natasha! Of course :) I created this blog so I can let my feelings out because sometimes I don't think my friends really care. And no, I'm not those whine about everything types :P
I write stories Poems and just vent, so be prepared for the worst!!! :D

(P.s I love you Vincent)

She sat in silence, staring at what was to become of her.
They laid the bodies on the floor and pointed their long, grimy fingers at her.
She stood, not weakened by their weapons or murderous content,
She stood strong, strong for her family, and strong for her people.
She walked right up to them looked them right in their soulless eyes and said
"You are no man of God"

And then, she was dead, laid on the floor with the rest of her kin.

(SADNESS=all i can really relate to while writing :P )